I need some advice on what to do me and my boyfriend have been together for 2 years we have a 8month old together and I have 2 kids from previous relationship and he has 1 kid too so we have 4 boys in total . Life has been a bit hectic after we had our baby . Before he was born we rarely fought we had a beautiful healthy relationship we rarely argued and if we did we had normal conversations. He’s not perfect but he’s a good trying man . I used to work in the beginning of our relationship I’ve always worked and made my own money but he always wanted me to stop working but we were financially struggling and I wanted to help . When I was around 7 months pregnant he insisted I stayed home he got a better job and we were financially stable so I did . After we had our baby I still stayed home it got very hard w 4 kids and life had been very hectic. Staying at home w the kids has been very hard for me to adjust as well and I do want to go back to work I just can’t keep up , but I also want to enjoy being w my kids at home they deserve to have me at home w them . My boyfriend also doesn’t want me to work is not the best at the moment. My mental health after the baby has been the worse I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder and depression it has been very hard to control my emotions I feel like a ticking bomb just a small thing makes me so angry all the time . My boyfriend has been very supportive these past months he encouraged me to seek help . Unfortunately this past month he got let go from his job they had to let go of employees and he was one of them . He has been very down lately I tried to go back to work but he doesn’t want me to . Fortunately we had some money saved so he’s able to take a month or 2 off . He’s still actively looking for work though . I’ve been trying so hard to not argue w him and make it easier but my feelings get them best of me at times and for the past months we have fought non stop every day . Yesterday we had our worse fight we yelled at each other and said some awful things to each other in front of one of our boys and I could tell my bf was so fed up and he said how he thinks this is not working . I felt so awful hearing that I rushed home and tried packing my stuff and leave . For the first time it looked like he wanted me to leave too . He didn’t stop me he kept saying how unhappy and miserable he is when we fight and he has spent more time being unhappy than happy . And I just felt so bad for hearing that I pushed my pride aside and I apologized and I begged him to fix things he was crying too and said he thinks this is not working and how he doesn’t want to try anymore. After a couple hours when we cooled off I sat down w him and we talked . And he expressed to me how he still loves me but we fight so much he doesn’t see anything changing and he kept saying how he was so unhappy. I asked him if we changed and not fought would he be willing to try again . He seemed hesitant but he reassured me he loves me and he’s sad that he thinks we won’t work . I told him I will try my best and make sure we are doing better . Looking back it almost seemed like I kept trying to change his mind . Idk if I was wrong for that or I should of just left and ended it there . But we do have a family together and I don’t want to leave and then when we’re clear headed we want to try again and I go move back in I don’t want to put my kids through that back and forth . He agreed on seeing how it works out for the next weeks . He hugged me and apologized for what he said to me . He didn’t disrespect me but he used my mental health against me in our fight . He said he doesn’t want me to think that he has this desire of not being w me but he just doesn’t want to be with me this way . I cried all night idk what to do I feel so confused I don’t know how to feel about us now I feel weird being here w him after he told me he didn’t want to do this anymore and I had to change his mind . I feel like he’s going to make up his mind and realize he doesn’t want to be with me at all anymore. I’m not sure what to do or what to think . I have no one to talk to at all so I would appreciate some advice