I’m so embarrassed. I feel sooo deeply trauma bonded to this guy and I don’t know how to just leave. I realize that he’s an awful person, that I’m doing myself a great disservice staying around him, and that I need to leave before I’m in too deep.

He’s cornered me into quitting my job, he holds me down and “takes what he wants” (in his own words !!) during sex, has told me that he gets mad if I ask him to be gentler during sex, he always threatens to be done with me if I don’t do what he wants, he doesn’t want me but then gets jealous of any other man basically even just talking to me and comes up with some reason why I should avoid every male. It goes on.

I think the biggest reason I want to hold onto him still is because of the miscarriage I had a week ago. I have no support system - my family sucks and I don’t really have friends (some I lost because they didn’t like that I was going back to him, some because he didn’t want me talking to them and always made an issue, partly because I don’t make friends much anymore). On top of it, I feel like he is the only living piece I have to the baby. But the most pathetic part is he doesn’t know I was pregnant, because I knew that if I told him, I would probably lose him too… im literally such a loser. Please help.