First off I wanna say this is my 3rd pregnancy with a new man. The man is older than me and has four older children 12,14,17,18 and we do not live together anymore. I have my home with my two girls age 4&6 and he lives with his kids. This whole pregnancy has been a shock. He's never went to any doctor appointments with me, hospital visits, we had broken up in June because I just felt the lack of me feeling like a priority when he would want me to break my back and come see him and do for him all the time his excuse was he had to stay with his kids (and don't get me wrong I understand be with your kids) but they are homeschooled he leaves them there when he goes to work and he works in the town I live in he can't just take 30mins out of his day to come see me before going home or on the weekends. Then we got back to get before July. He told me he would change make me feel like a priority etc well he's back to his ways again says he can't come I've been needing him here lately I've gotten bigger, I have needed some help around my home I can not do myself, weekends when my girls go to their dad's I've been here alone, but he won't attempt to come over or come get me or etc. He says when the baby gets here he'll come and be here and try to help out as much as he can. But I can't help but feel like he never cared or had feelings for me if he was to do that bc to me that looks as he didn't wanna be around me just when she comes. Then when I go to talk about support for her he's like I have 4 other kids to support how am I gonna support you and the baby?? I have worked my entire pregnancy I worked as a teacher assistant 8-3, cleaned the school 3-5, cleaned the post office 3x a week, and cleaned 3 urgent cares in another town 5x a week and cleaned houses when i wasn't doing that all along with my 2 kids with me the whole time. I have prepared myself bc I feel as I can not depend on him. But I just feel so lonely these last 2 weeks I've just asked for a little one on one me and him time before baby got here and that's like wishful thinking. I don't have a mom or dad to go visit they passed away I am just crying alot throughout the day. What are some ideas I can do to pass the time til she gets here that don't cost money.