I feel like an absolute asshole over this. My best friend who I’ve known since college just announced she’s pregnant. I suffered my third miscarriage in May right around the time she got pregnant (didn’t know she was pregnant until today) and now that she’s announced it I feel myself spiraling. This was a huge blow to me because in my mind I was still “ok” that I hadn’t had a baby yet considering I’m 34 and they still didn’t have kids either. Most of my friends have kids if not multiple kids by but ow that she’s pregnant I feel like I’m alone. Stupid to think like that but my brain is being mean. This most recent loss has hit me so much harder and I’m struggling. I’m of course happy for my friend but I’m sad for myself. I know I’ll have to go to a baby shower and see the milestones and birth announcements but I’m so angry that it isn’t me. My husband and I have had set back after set back and I just feel like we keep getting kicked in the teeth. Does it ever get easier to deal with? Because right now it doesn’t feel like it.