He is angry of me..

Recently im going through alot and one day made a stupid decision took many pills somehow as i was going to get unconscious i sent a voice message to my boyfriend with a very unintelligible words that he noticed i did suicide and called the emergency and i was unconscious till the day after in hospital that i found out thee police broke the door ans they brought me there but i had nothing with me and no idea where i am so tried to call my boyfriend in second day that he rejected me and sent these messages.. like i have no idea why i sent that message to him in last minutes and wish that i didnt…