For reference I’m 30 my child’s mother is 20 or 21. It’s her first baby and she’s pregnant with my child. I didn’t know her that well and she was just a fling we were just having sex and she got pregnant. I didn’t want it as she forced me to be a part of this by not terminating but here we are.

About two months ago we got into a really big dispute. I’ve been upfront with her in terms of me dating someone and being with someone and she was very hurt about that. We continued having sex and one night she stalked my page and found my gf and sent her a message asking about the nature of our relationship and that we were still sleeping around. I lost it that night and came to her job and shoved her around trying to take her phone but she was punching and slapping me (I did not hit her back at all as she claims).

Later that day she started telling me that another man will be raising my child as she’s moving on. She was calling me names and disrespecting me. At the same time she called me 50 times begging me to be together and apologizing. I blocked her and told her we were done and that I’m never leaving my gf and to leave my girl the hell alone bc she’s a stalker and that I would beat her up. I admit I said it. I’m not proud of that.

We’ve had disputes before but that was the worst one. Usually after a couple days she’ll reach out but it’s been two months. I’ve tried coming to her job, her apartment and calling but she won’t pick up. I can’t reach her. Her job says she doesn’t work there anymore. I really wanna be a part of my child’s life and I have no way of contacting her or seeing her.

I am looking for advice. Is there any possibility I’ll ever reach her again? In a couple weeks it’ll be 3 months since I’ve seen or spoken to her last. I’ve been thinking about the baby a lot. Idk any of her family or friends. I just don’t know what to do anymore. She started all of this drama and now is trying to run with my child?