Would rather be single and have this baby alone.

I would much rather go to bed a lone and not have to be in a bed with someone feeling even more lonely than I would be by myself. This marriage has made me feel lonelier than I did single. I would rather struggle and have this baby by myself in a bathroom than to bring a baby into a marriage where I feel like i’m not going to be taken care of. I just feel lonely and so unsupported and unloved.. I feel like I have to commit shove for this person to even care or realize how hurt I carry..