I went through his phone while he was sleeping and found messages on his phone to other girls. It was bad and it makes me feel embarrassed that he’d go to those lengths with other women without just ending things with me. It’s horrible because we live together and he literally was taking pictures of our dog and sending it to the other woman.

And also texting her about the show we were watching together. It just makes me wonder about all these moments we have together and just how long he’s been checked out of them? When he was planning to go over someone else’s house this weekend and spend the night. It feels like everything he’s told me was a lie. Perhaps he wanted me to find out and for me to break things off like this.

I’m just never going to find someone to love me truely, I don’t cook at all and I struggle to cook any good meals. And that’s what a guy wants is someone to cook and I can’t even do that. I trusted him and I didn’t even know he’d go this far.

The other night I had told him about a coworker offering a hug which I declined and it never happened but he had the audacity to get upset, call his brother and ask if it was my fault. As if I was in the wrong and he had to have his brother on the other end to back him up.

He must find me completely repulsive ;( and it’s also awful because his cousin just got cheated on by his baby mama and he has offered his sympathies as if he wasn’t doing the same thing. 😭it sucks…