I have two kids who fill my life with joy and love. However they were heavily unplanned 😅

Every birth has been a delay in my professional life and personal life. I have not had it easy in regards to family support as everyone is so far away.

My kids are so good right now and growing, 3 and 5, my personal and professional life are finally taking off, I have caught some air. I bought a house, have it all sorted out with care and support and finally have a friend network. And I’m so wishing for a new baby 😭 because this is the life that I wanted to bring the kids to. But my husband has already done a vasectomy because it was all so traumatizing before.

And he also doesn’t want more cause he also feels like me, we finally have the life that we wanted.

I also don’t want to logically bring another person to the world just because life is in a good place. Money and time are excellent how it is right now. And my pregnancies and births have been awful…

But I still want to have another litttle baby and have a better experience however much it doesn’t make sense. I just feel like I’m losing someone and it’s so irrational…