So Scared

I am currently 9 weeks 5 days pregnant and scared out of my mind. I am 27 and have experienced 2 previous losses. With the most recent being this past January at 13 weeks. I have PCOS and I struggled getting pregnant it was 2 years between my first loss and my most recent. My husband and I did IUI and got pregnant. Due to my last loss (I bled for 2 weeks before delivering the sweetest little guy) I am on progesterone and my dr wants me to stop at 10 weeks. I am so scared that I’m going to stop this medication and I’m going to lose this special baby (we first thought the IUI didn’t work and they thought I had a cyst) I scared that this is going to happen again like last time. I barely made it through after losing our boy. I don’t think I can again. I don’t want anything to happen and it’s once again my fault. They said with our boy he was perfect, there was nothing wrong with him…only me.. what if something happens to this miracle baby?

Here is our ultrasound at 8 weeks 4 days to end on a happier note. My specialist says this looks like a perfectly healthy baby. We got to see the heart beat and watch it move.