Husband doesn’t want to talk about it

6 weeks accidentally pregnant for the 2nd time with a 4th baby. My husband laughed at the news but said he’s 50/50 about keeping this baby and since I’ve had many health problems during and postpartum last time and that I would be most of the time at home with the kids, it should be my decision what to do. So I’m 100% for abortion for many reasons, the law requires to visit a “pregnancy conflicting”consultation before proceeding with it. I wanted to talk some things out with my husband and he said choosing not to think about it and pretend like nothing has happened. I did tell him, I need him to talk to me about how he feels not that after resentment and blame builds up in him. He is conflicted because being pro-life but understands the life changes it can bring to our family. He also said that the more he’s talking to me about it the worse he feels.

I’m worried this will be a decision that might eat him up inside and don’t know how to approach this any further.

I personally don’t have the mental, emotional and physical capacity to go back to being pregnant already the small symptoms are getting me angry because I don’t want to feel it anymore. I dread Postpartum, being lonely, nursing, all those. Including financial stress. How do I move forward with the decision?