ttc rant

Okay so I think I just need to rant. This month has been an extremely stressful/emotional month (i’m sure for most of us) and i’ve had a hard time with the holidays. At the beginning of this month me and my baby dad were hanging out with one of his friends from high school that he hasn’t seen in awhile. We were sitting chatting and he looks at us and asked when we were gonna get married, I then proceeded to look back at him and say “Weddings a babies coming soon” as a joke. Wheh i tell you that this mad then looked at me and said “well your body doesn’t really like kids so i highly doubt that”. and continued to go on a 60 second rant on how i can’t get pregnant and we’ve told him all about it. I just stopped talking. My boyfriend said something and it just kinda went silent. A few more words were exchanged and his friend left. On top of that i was really stressed out this week and just also happene to be ovulating.I only tested lh twice. We baby danced a few times in the window but it’s stressing me out. I’m just really hoping this happens soon for us. i’m starting to lose hope.