I’m pregnant 🙃

My husband and I just got back together after almost 2 years of being separated. It’s literally been one month.. and on the 1 month anniversary I found out I am pregnant. Mind you we have a 4 year old. He was telling me weeks leading up that I was pregnant. I didn’t believe it .. that is until I took the test . And I’m definitely pregnant. I have mixed emotions. We are not financially stable for another kid. I’ve been out of work since September due to me breaking my ankle trying to go inside my work smh. He has a job and makes decent money. With that being said I was bawling crying that I was pregnant because I felt like my world was coming down. But at the same time I love children it’s literally my profession. I love being a mom but pregnancy , postpartum has traumatized me and I would be lying if I said I’m NOT scared shitless. .. but the biggest thing I want to point out is that my husband didn’t necessarily come out and say I have to get an abortion but he did say to think about my options . And what “pain “ do I want to take. Pain of regret(I’m pro choice) but for myself I can’t seem too go through with it . Or the pain of struggle of raising two kids. Once I told him I couldn’t do abortion and that I’m going to have the child he said regardless we will be ok . But his actions are implying something else. I’m 100% empathic that I’m not the only one scared . I can understand that . But he’s not communicating verbally . I read energy well and sometimes really deep because I’m very emotional. It feels like he’s upset that I’m keeping the baby which makes me want to spiral. It’s like I should just move back to my home state with my daughter & back to my parents and start completely over AGAIN that’s how I feel.. I guess with saying all this do I seem to just be to emotional or should I be packing my things TODAY.. and please be nice .. I’m really emotional I don’t have time for mean rude comments . Thanks