Struggling mentally

So my OH is pressuring me to have an abortion, we already have 2 children together.

Both religious and I’m really really struggling right now because I just don’t believe in abortions. Our baby was made with love, I shouldn’t have to k*ll it just because he says he’s not ready!!

We’re in a much much better position now than we were with our first 2 children, I just don’t understand!!

He took it upon himself to book a consultation for termination for January 15th. I don’t know what to do, I cried myself to sleep 2 nights in a row now because why should my baby have to suffer?