My bf parents won’t let us get married 😭

I’m not sure why I’m posting here. I’m sitting at my desk and crying because my boyfriend’s parents won’t let us get married. They won’t give their blessing or help for us to get married and it’s hurting my heart. All I ever wanted was to find love and get married, be a wife and a mother. To have a family of my own and give my family what I never had. I’m 47 and my bf is 35. We are almost 12 years apart. My time to have children is limited and after the loss of my little brother 7 months ago, I know there is no guarantee of tomorrow and I feel like I’m running out of time. I moved closer to my boyfriend and left everything behind because we were supposed to be getting married. None of that has happened yet. I’ve been waiting and waiting and I’m feeling sad and frustrated all the time. Waiting to start this life we talked about. I moved into a home to set it up for us and yet nothing. Today, his mom says she won’t give approval because he has some debt and he started his own business. I told him that we all have debt and that’s how life goes. No one is ever truly out of debt because we always have things to pay for. I have my own business too so I know how it goes. I was sitting on the couch and he came and sat next to me and put his arms around me as I cried and said, it’s not fair. We are adults and we should be able to get married. I know everyone on my side would be excited and say, let’s do this. I ended up getting up and walking away saying I don’t want to do this anymore. His parents are supposed to be my future parents and if they can’t give approval now, then I don’t know if they ever will and I don’t want my life to be held up anymore. I’ve always taken care of everything and everyone since I was a kid. Have put my life on hold for far too long. I don’t want to do it anymore. I don’t know what to do. He tells me he doesn’t want to lose me but how can I be ok with this? I can’t be. I won’t be. I’m a grown woman and he’s a grown man and we should be able to get married and have that love and support. I’m extremely sad and my heart truly hurts. I’m tired of crying.

Not sure what to get from this post. Just needed to get it out there.