First time mum without my mum

Surely I can’t be the only one who is pregnant for the first time and my mum has recently passed? I can’t find anyone who can relate, it’s such a lonely journey doing this for the first time without having my mum with me. I really need someone to talk to who has also lost their mum and is a first time mum otherwise I feel like I’m going to lose my head. 😭🤞 my partner and his family just really do not understand what it’s like or what I’m going through and it really seems like they don’t care.