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Hi all, I guess I need somewhere to vent ..

I am in a huge rut with finance and mental health, I can’t find a good paying job because everyone is getting so many applications but my current job and I am drowning. I have about 100 dollars left over every month after paying all my bills, I use that 100 to feed my animals and my son, I haven’t eaten a proper meal in 3 weeks because I would rather them be able to eat. I can’t get state assistance because I “make too much” I make $16 an hour and have almost $2000 in bills every month. Unfortunately I can’t get rid of any of those bills either as they are crucial to be able to even work to get the money to pay them :/

It’s making my suicidal thoughts come back as at this point I feel the only thing that would help is not being here. The reason I won’t give into them is for my son, but it takes everything in me not to… I just don’t know what to do at this point