Ttc woes

I’m in early days, only 8 dpo, but I’m just totally upset and anxious and angry about the whole thing. It’s taking over everything I do and think and I hate that. My first born was a surprise, I conceived my second first try and received a faint line at 9dpo, and this time around I’ve only just realised that I wanted to have a third and final and now o know I want it I can’t think of anything else. It’s just so depressing and heartbreaking to never get a line.