Thinking of giving up !

Last night i tried bd with my boyfriend and he said he was tired ! So i sneak off to the bathroom got all dressed up and tried role playing he became real dry. Come on and hurry -___- ... i tried to stay positive and get it over with. Today i didnt want to bd but was looking for a affection session... && he gave me another excuse why he doesnt want to kiss me or makeout. Im really tired he is always like this. Im ready to stop ttc TODAY !