New year resolutions

I think for me the biggest thing I NEED to change this year is the company I keep. I notice such a huge difference when certain people aren't in my life for a length of time. And then when they are there again. And it's mad how my loved ones even notice by the change in me I become so much more aggravated tense and frustrated and snappy with everyone. I need to really get rid of toxic friends who do not care about me in anyway but expects to be emotionally supportive of them all the time. Or I'm such a shit person and get serious backlash then told it's me. I swear I feel like I'm back with my abusive ex. Who always tried to twist EVERYTHING on you somehow. Never knew when to just put his hands up and say sorry for once. But gets sooooo nasty to you. This friendship is seriously just as bad. I can't continue this threw this year too. Such a selfish self centred person who expects from everyone emotionally. But gives nothing back. I have a friend who I actually know GENUINELY cares about me my wellbeing and my emotions and over this person I never give her the time of day. She is the only one who acc listens and gives me advice and the difference isad. I can feel that she really cares. And always wants to know and ask how you feel. Yet if I text my other friend needing to vent..... Nothing!!! Disappearing act or change of subject entirely. Dosnt want to know. Changes need to really be made this year. I think I finally need to start acc listening to people who care about me on how toxic this so called friendship really is for me. Just for once in my life. I need to listen