don’t wanna be sad anymore

i (22f) have a boyfriend (21m) and recently i have been feeling very depressed and down, i tried killing my self once, and i barely didn’t make it, i spent quite some time in the hospital, then a mental hospital. anyway i’ve been feeling the same way i did before that happened to me. and today i told my boyfriend about it. anytime i tell him anything that slightly bothers me or something about me, he says i should break up with him then. and today when i told him how i felt and how i wanted to die, he didn’t even look up from his video game. he just told me “well u should probably break up with me” and “idk what you want” and that hurt worse then anything else i could feel. is this proof he doesn’t care about me? cause i feel like it is.. i wish i was loved. i’m probably to mentally messed up for him. i told him that but he didn’t believe me