Sneaky

My husband has a history of cheating and abuse. Trying to go to counseling with him seems good when I take him back but nothing ever happens. He always keeps in touch with certain females from his HS when we aren’t together . He will add I guess certain women he went to school with and I have no problem with platonic friendships. But when he does this, he only adds them when we have been having tough spots in our marriage. Then he says he doesn’t know why he does it maybe because we aren’t getting along at the time. It just makes me feel like he is secretly lusting over them because why not just add them when we are in a good place and not apart emotionally or physically. It just makes me feel like he has other motives with them. He has cheated on me with women from his past ..college,HS etc….I just want to trust him and not feel like he’s constantly sneaking around deleting messenger and things like that. Im too old for this …the stress…. I’m 36 and he’s 38 …it’s getting old