Any other abused parents?

Anonymous because I’m a little embarrassed

Any other parents need help but can’t trust anyone with your kids. I was an abused child and have ptsd and anxiety. Now I can’t turn off the feeling that nobody is going to love them and keep them safe like I do. I’m with my kids constantly, overcompensate a lot, and trust barely anyone. My kids are happy and healthy and have the mom and life I dreamed of. But I need a me break and have nobody to turn to.