I can’t see my future

I woke up this morning feeling very alone. I’m not alone, I am married. Anywho, I can’t envision my future anymore. I used to be able to see it so clearly. My next move in life, becoming a mom some day, a grandma, a successful woman in my field. It’s so bizarre but I can’t imagine that now. I truly feel like I’m not going to live long enough to see these things come true. I can’t explain it to anyone cuz it doesn’t even make sense. It’s like the trajectory of my life right now, I don’t see how any of these things would be possible. I feel out of control in my own life. I’ve always know my purpose in life and now I feel like I have none. Production and moral is low. But I still try to find things that make me happy. It doesn’t work though. Is this what hopeless is?