Tummy after twins

My tummy looks awful! I didn’t get stretch marks with my singletons but now it looks like Freddy Krueger got to it, I have flabby hanging skin and a C-section shelf on top of it all. I just want to hide myself from my husband. Has anyone experienced this and it got better? I’m going to Physical therapy to help the diastasis recti but that’s not going to do anything for my gross skin. I hate it! I know I grew two babies and I love them to death but if I hear “your body did a beautiful thing” “or “just be happy” I’m going to scream. 😭