Thoughts

No matter what I do, my dad is always comparing and harassing me about the father of my child. He talks down on him to me every time we talk to over the phone. He dislike him so much to where he tries to tell me what to do with my life and how to live it. He dislikes that fact that he’s not working. He definitely was working in the past in which that’s how we met but he’s been going through a bunch of obstacles. He also hustles and make his money from hustling. He did mentioned that he will start back working after he’s done making money from this hustle he does seasonal every year which will be this month. He also tripped out on the fact that I allowed him to pick up his other baby from the mom. He says “then you have the nerve to pick up some other girl baby and drive his baby around” then whispers “and I know you ain’t get that from me”, “let me guess you gone take care of that other baby too and him”. So much things this man said. I even got approved for a 2 bedroom and moved out my moms house and he’s not even happy for me about that, he’s still pissed off talking down on me. I even told my mom about this and she mentioned “that’s good you have your own place, I don’t see nothing wrong”. It’s like he’s never happy for me at all and I don’t want our relationship to be about my s/o. Times is rough right now. I’m trying to get myself together, my life together, and do what I need to do. Yes things looking crazy now but I’m doing the best that I can. He doesn’t want to stick by my side. He doesn’t call me but then complains and say something is wrong with me cause I don’t call but yet no one checks up on me. Then when I do decide to call, the conversation never ends well, it’s always about him and nothing else. My thoughts are all over the place. He has such a slick, negative mouth. At this point I don’t know if I’m really doing something wrong or what. Im just trying to make it in life like everyone else.