Bad Sex Vent

So long story short, me and my husband have been on a bad sex streak. And I'm just having a lot of thoughts. He's just not getting hard or even trying to have sex. He has a past, so I'm within my right to jump to conclusions💀 Last night I did ask him, are you seeing someone else? Am I not turning you on? Are you jerking off before I see you? I even asked him if there was something medical going on. In which he just round it up to stress and his recent "sobriety". But what frustrates me, it's 3:30am and he's bugging for sex. Whenever he does initiate sex, it's in the middle of the night. And it's never comfortable for me. It's not pleasurable because for one; I was dead asleep and to be waken up for sex isn't ideal. And two; I have to pee and after having two kids, holding my pee in during sex isn't possible.

Of course there's a lot of missing background information, but just in summary I'm tired of bad sex. And at this point I would rather him admit he's screwing around or I'm not attractive then to keep having bad sex. It honestly has me in a sad mood today because I just want a healthy relationship with good sex again😭😭