Never ending…

I feel like this hurt and pain is never ending lately… since our loss and the d&c back in august… we decided to try this month. I was unsure but we want a baby so bad… then my grandmother just passed. I feel so much grief right now… and I’m not pregnant and was starting to get my hopes up but of course I just started bleeding… just feeling so lost and alone right now… I try to explain it to my husband but he doesn’t understand he tries but he just doesn’t…