The one where they find out we're still not pregnant

Never in a million years did I think it would take this long to have a baby...I mean everywhere I look I see a pregnant woman or two or a friend pops up pregnantor a TV show I'm watching has someone pregnant or my instagram feed is filled with pregnantwomen or pregnancy announcement. We've been trying for two years and sometimes when people hear that they respond by saying, 'Oh that's short, we were trying for 4years before it happened' & I think to myself okay maybe I'mbeing a bit selfish here...trying to rush the process...but I am 36 years old & I'mso tired of cryi.g everytime my period starts or i don't get to see those two lines on a test. Everyone says just enjoy the process & don't stress too much...but how do i keep calm when it seems to not be happening for us. I'mtired of attending babyshowers and being asked when it'llbe my turn,because its hard telling people we'rejust not falling pregnantand the doctors say all is well. My husbands bestie told him he was going to be a dad the other day...& I thought to myself 'oh crap' that was the last one...and for tge first time I could see how us not falling pregnant has taken its toll on him too. At this stage of the game I'm willing to give up so much just to be blessed with a bundle of joy, one I made & brought into this world. I too want to feel that joy... I'm playingfor everyone who is TTC...I hope that we will one day testify of God's grace. Sending some baby dust to you all♡