I'm 31 and my husband will be 28 in a few weeks. He swears I'm lame and act old. I'm not fun as I used to be because of my husband. When I married him he didn't want me wearing makeup because he said woman who wear makeup look like clowns. I used to love doing my makeup but I wanted to please him. I was a super freak when I met my husband. I had his first baby 2 year ago and ever since then my sex drive has been fucked. At first I would have sex with him a lot due to me feeling he would cheat. He made me feel I had to have sex with him when I was 3 weeks pp. I didn't even feel him in me. I did it to please him. My husband was laid off right after I had the baby. I went back to work 3 weeks pp as a CNA. Like wtf. I worked most of my pregnancy and I had preeclampsia. He was laid off a lot. It was horrible. I was in pain a lot. I worked to help my family. Nothing I do can actually please this man because he still did shady shit behind my back around mothers day this year. He didn't have sex but he got caught talking to woman and making fake FB accounts. I still forgave him. We fight a lot. He brings up that I barely have sex with him. Once, again my sex drive is horrible. Then, again who would want to have sex with a man who can't really be a man. He says I don't treat him like a man cuz I won't have sex when he wants. Smfh. A man would see he has a wife and not be talking to other woman. I'm 10 weeks pregnant. I barely been working due to be feeling sick all the time. Everyday he throws it in my face he pays all the bills. It's fucked up because I'm pregnant. My last pregnancy I was forced to work over 60 hours a week to pay bills. I had to do a lot of 16 hour shifts and barely get sleep. I didn't want to do that again especially when he had a good job. His pay is doubled from what he was making my last pregnancy. Tonight on New Year's <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> the neighbor was shooting his gun. My husband wanted to shoot his. I told him no. He hadn't shot a gun in years. He got mad and started a fight. He said he isn't a man cuz I told him no. Then, brings up I barely have sex with him. I'm tired of feeling like a object. When I used to sex with my husband everyday I still caught him with a secret phone in our bathroom. Like bitch I can't be your whore when your talking to whores. I have explained this to him before. He has ruined our marriage. It will never be the way it was at the beginning. I was really gonna divorce him before but then I found out I was pregnant with my now almost 2 years old. He said he would change and things would be better. I actually deeply hate this man. Right now I can't leave him due to me not having enough money and no family. Family Members have died and others have moved to different states. I really wish this marriage could of worked. I wanted my kids to have both parents in the same home. It's really not gonna be a option pretty soon. I can't deal with this child anymore. He won't grow up. He's such a stupid bitch!!!!!!

-been married almost 5 years

-been dealing with this shady shit since 4 moñths into the marriage.