So exhausted and i feel bad about it.

Luna

This pregnancy had been tough on me, my blood pressure has been a fucking roller coaster, im 29 weeks and still constantly sick, my iron and magnesium keeps dropping and being out of breath after just getting myself out of my bed and to the bathroom just sucks.for some extra context my pregnancy was high risk from the get go i had a miscarriage(my 8th miscarriage) about 2 weeks before getting pregnant this time. Ive been trying to keep the house tidy but its hard, my husband and i split rent and utilities with his mom to help both parties save some money and since she cant afford a place big enough for herself and her other two children on her own. She is great she keeps as tidy as she can(she just had a huge surgery a couple months ago) and she defends me from her next oldest (the teen) who gets mad when the house isnt to his liking but he doesnt help clean. My first trimester was the worst the youngest of her boys(about 10) was super helpful during the first trimester he helped cook, clean and even held my hair while i was sick when my husband wasnt home. But the teen was constantly throwing tantrums because i wasnt cleaning the house as good as i did before getting pregnant " all she does is puke and cry" when i tell you my mother in law snapped at him with a quickness i mean speedy Gonzales himself wouldnt have been able to keep pace, though her giving him that tough love did keep him from being vocal about his disgruntlements he still doesnt help around the house. My husband has been working long hours since im unable to to work right now but he still comes home and cleans house, cooks, pampers me and reads to our little bump. My baby shower is in a few weeks and the house is a mess but my sister is so amazing she hored a cleaning company to help get the house tidy in time for the shower that took a huge weight off my & my husband shoulders but i still.wish the teen would at least clean the moldy dishes he brings out from his room. Am i an asshole for that?