Hey ladies,

I gave birth to my daughter over 2 years ago. Whenever I expressed concern over delivering to other moms, the only reply I ever heard was “everything down there goes right back to normal once you are healed!”

Girls this was not the case for me 😭

My vagina feels much, much more loose. Tampons slip down, and during sex I can tell that I am so much more loose than I was before 😭 Sex feels totally different. I feel like I have someone else’s vagina inside my body. I don’t feel like myself and my husband says he still enjoys sex, but it breaks my heart for him. He is too sweet to say it, but I’m sure I feel so much worse to him as well.

I’m guessing this is not normal since I’ve never heard anyone say anything like this before. Has anyone else at all experienced this?

If it makes any difference I pushed for 2 hours, she was sunny side up, and I had a 3rd degree tear. I begged and begged for a C section but the doctors refused. I keep thinking about how if they’d done a C section like I asked, my body wouldn’t be destroyed and it would still feel like myself. I know it isn’t a walk in the park and there are other risks, but I’m afraid my bedroom life will never be the same.

If anyone has gone through this before, did anything help? I did two sessions of pelvic floor therapy before realizing my insurance was only paying 20% of the cost so that is off the table. After some research it looks like a vaginoplasty would be my best bet but it’s out of budget as well.

If anyone knows anything else that can help, please let me know. I am desperate 😭

Thanks, ladies 🫶🏻