Baby daddy is ignoring me

Anyone else have something similar? I feel alone 😔

Let me start off with me and bd was together, he stopped showing up to everything and wouldn’t let me cry.. he broke up with me for “arguing” about this when I was 2 months pregnant.🙄🥲

Then he came to “apologize”, and coerced me into sex (I said I didn’t want to)

He has apologized and he only messages me about once a month, I ended up answering this message after he wouldn’t stop calling randomly. 😒

Now I feel stupid because he is not responding to me after asking if he wanted to come to ONE ultrasound or feel the baby kick before I am not pregnant anymore. He never has. 😔

I feel dumb for responding or feeling some type of way, but pregnancy is such a connecting thing with the father, even if he’s horrible and even if you have a couple other supports it’s not the same.🤷‍♀️😭 it’s like my soul is sad and I don’t want to hurt the baby with crying

Am I alone in this? Anyone else?