What does he want from me ? What do I want from him?
Let me just start by saying I've always believed you shouldn't get your meat where you get your bread. Im a very private person and am not comfortable mixing my personal life and work life. I work in a place where everyone is super friendly to eachother and of course everyone knows everyones business. I'm one of the few ones that doesn't really socialize with them outside of work. That being said a few months ago there was this work thing and everyone was drinking having a good time. After a few hrs and a few drinks me and this guy left and did our own thing. We had a drink at this bar we talked alot shared alot. And then things got steamy super quick at the bar we wandered off to. I hate PDA but in that moment I couldn't care any less. We made out there for about half an hr then walked out holding hands the whole way back to his car. And as if things weren't already steamy enough at bar they got super hot and intense in his car. My tits were out his dick was out. He was in the driver seat and I straddled him practically dry humping him. Anyways we somehow stopped ourselves before going too far. He drops me back off we say bye. Everything from that whole little incident (idk what to even call it still) was so unlike me. Starting with me agreeing to even go have a drink just the 2 of us. So, the next morning I'm waking up thinking it was a one time type of thing cause while it was fun and I enjoyed it in the moment, it also makes me cringe at how easy i seemed. During the 3 years I've worked there we've always got along super well. We've texted before but very spraingly, and just exchaning memes things of that sort but I never had thought of him as anything other than a coworker. Now its been almost 6 months since that first incident and we text every single day almost all day. He goes out of his way to find me at work. We've hung out 6 times after work since then. I dont think of them of as dates, I'm not sure if he does. Its always after work and I always try to leave fast. He has asked me to make more time for him and talks about wanting to take me to certain places. The times we've hung out we do end up making out, sometimes its sweet and romantic, other times it gets very heated and sexy. Never as heated as the first time tho and we've never had sex. He has brought up wanting to, although not in a very direct way more of a playful way, my response has been along the lines of not thinking it would be a good idea. I've also dropped hints since the very beginning of wanting to be friends, but we've never really discusswhat we're doing exactly or where this is even going. He does constantly talk about us having great chemistry and how he's glad I came into his life. I guess I say all this to say that I don't know what he wants out of this. And maybe the reason I dont just ask him is because I don't know what I want either. He is very persistent on wanting to spend time with me he'll tell me misses me and other sweet things. Whereas I've never been the one to plan a hangout or say anything romantic things to him I think maybe cause I dont want to lead him on. I do deeply enjoy our time together. I think about him all day actually. I look.forward to getting his texts and him looking for me at work. He just make me smile so much. But Im not ready for a relationship right now much less someone from work. Which is what really is troubling me I think. I don't understand why he seems to be okay with things the way they are now. He doesn't pressure me to have sex with him but he also has never even hinted at making anything serious out of this. Maybe if this was someone I didn't work with for possibly the entirety of our careers, I wouldn't mind just going with the flow. I just dont want things to get messy for us at work but most of all I care very deeply about his feelings. Idk what he expects from me ...... Thank you for reading this far also your input would be much appreciated !
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