Just venting …

Just came here to vent.. maybe get some comfort. Back in September I found out I was pregnant my levels were doubling everything was looking great… I thought. Well I went for an early scan and they said it was too early they don’t see the heartbeat just yet. So two weeks go by my pregnancy symptoms were progressing I always thought that was a good indicator things were going well. Well at my next scan they said the baby stopped growing and to expect to miscarry soon. I was shocked! I’ve had prior miscarriages but this one I thought was going well I did catch Covid shortly after finding out like a couple days so I blame it on that but it stays in the back of my mind because idk what I could have done differently.

So fast forward I’m pregnant just found out I took my first blood test it was at 25 I don’t get another one til Monday and even still because what I went through months ago I am BEYOND ANXIOUS !! Because everything I thought were good indicators obviously doesn’t indicate much of anything I feel.. I have been trying for a couple months now I’m so happy I just wish I could shake this horrible feeling of anxiety. 😭