I’m a mess!

6 weeks tomorrow and I’m a complete mess I’m falling apart waiting on the scan Thursday I’m sitting here thinking the worst and comparing symptoms and lack of symptoms in my case I suffered a loss a year and a half ago at 12 weeks baby’s heart stopped beating at 8 thry don’t know why but one doc told me cause I’m old 😞I try to talk to my bf about it but he gets upset at me I feel so scared and alone I wish I could just feel pregnant so I felt better I do have some left ovary pain but I do have cysts so my brain goes straight to etopic of course 😣