Giving up on ever giving my SO a baby

I decided after seeing this last negative that I’m done trying. These last few weeks I fought against and it’s clearly telling me that I’m fighting for nothing. So I decided upon this last test I’m done. Now to tell my SO I’m so saddened to cause I don’t want to kill his excitedness but mentally I can’t deal with the let downs. I’m exhausted mentally and physically. I’m just going to live my life. I’ve tried for so long to not give up but today was the last of the hope I carried. I wish you mamas so much baby dust! I’ve cried for the past two hours after throwing the test away. And now I’m dusting myself off and going to tuck away my journey. I just don’t know how to tell him gently without breaking his heart smh. Oh this is the part I’m dreading.