I thought I was ok but I’m not

I was fine doing this pregnancy alone . I’m in the middle of a divorce and I felt really good and positive about doing this alone . And today while I’m unboxing a few things I bought for my baby it hit me , this is really lonely and really scary and I don’t know how I’m going to manage with two other kids and going back to work . I’m still trying to find a place of my own so I can give him his place back . He’s really awful and really mean to me. Every doctors visit it hits me I’m really by myself . I’ll be giving birth alone I know I can do it I will have to do it but I’m really nervous and scared