*Trigger warning

This happened when I was a lot younger and it’s not something I have ever talked to anyone about besides my sister because it’s hard for me to decide if it affected me. When I was really young (probably around 8 or 9), my parents use to take us to their friends house who had 3 boys and one was a few years older then me. I didn’t realize it at the time but we would play hide and seek and the older guy would hide with me and dry hump me every time we hid together. I use to try to get away but didn’t realize what was going on. I never said anything to my parents and I found out when I was older that he also did that to my younger sister. I have severe anxiety when it comes to being touched by ppl. I can’t even really hug my fiancé without feeling anxious unless it involves s*x. Could that happening affect how I act now with touching other ppl? I hate that I look like someone is trying to attack me or something if they try to hug me or put their hands on me. I just don’t do well with other ppl. But I kind of wonder if that was even something serious enough that would bother me when I got older or if it’s just something else. Pleas be kind, it’s really something that I don’t talk about and I feel super weird about even saying anything now 😕