I hate myself but my husband says he loves me.

I hate my body... my husband told me yesterday that hes attracted to my curves including my belly... and told me that I look like a greek goddess statue... which are things I need to hear but I don't believe him... mine you I have clinical depression and am 7 months pregnant and the last time i was pregnant i gained 65lbs in the last 3 months... ive already gained 20lbs this time... I don't over eat my body just holds on to weight while I'm pregnant so easily. It doesn't help that for the last 5years my husband has very rarely initiated sex and it's up to me everytime to initiate and I was getting turned down all the time... and sometimes he can't even get it up with me touching him and kissing him. He's only 35 years old so I dont think age has anything to do with it. The last 2 weeks he's made an effort to have more sex with me because I told him that it hurts me that we use to do it every day and once we became parents everyother day and I became mentally ill he pretty much cut me off cold turkey for a long time and then once or twice a month, it's still me initiating... and I've felt disconnected and lonely sexually for so long... years... I really just feel unworthy of love and stay awake until the morning crying often... my mind and body makes me feel so insecure. I don't like being around other people other than my family. I know I'm imperfect but I want to be the only woman he lust after and I told him this and he said he doesn't really lust anymore... I wish I had delusional confidence... and I wish I felt wanted. He says he's happy with me and he's not going anywhere... then why doesn't he want me the way he use to and the way I still want him?