MY HUSBAND CHEATED WITH 40+ WOMEN

My husband is forty years old, and I am 37. We have been married for 19 years and together for 21 years. In November 2021, I had an intense feeling that he was cheating on me. Upon further investigation, I found out that he had slept with over 40 different women, mostly prostitutes, dating back to 2015. He admitted to his actions and blamed it on alcohol, bad friends, and allowing himself to be influenced by negative forces, claiming he had lost his morals. However, I don't believe these excuses, as I believe he made a conscious choice to cheat and disrespect our marriage.

He begged for forgiveness and asked for another chance. I made it clear to him that after what he did, he shouldn't expect much from me. I told him that I don't owe him respect, love, or loyalty, and that he would have to put in the majority of the effort to fix things. We agreed to give our relationship another try.

Since then, he has taken it upon himself to completely stop drinking alcohol. He has also gone to church, confessed his actions, and been baptized. He actively participates in most church activities. He now informs me of every plan or move he makes, and he has become very transparent. When he is not at work, he spends most of his time at home now. Surprisingly, he has become a better version of himself since I discovered his infidelity. He is more loving, caring, romantic, and reliable than he was before. He is really making an effort to change.

Initially, when I found out about his cheating, I was in shock and denial. It deeply affected me, and I fell into a state of depression. It was difficult for me to comprehend how he could sleep with multiple women and then come back home, look me in the eye, and profess his love for me, be intimate and cuddle throughout the night. It felt like an extreme form of deception.

To be honest, I haven't fully healed from the pain I experienced. I'm struggling to move past it, and now I find it challenging to be intimate with him. The enjoyment I once felt has diminished, and my body cringes when touches me. He is now whinging that 3 years is long time things should sort of get back to normal.

Can one really heal from this kind of pain? Can the affection be restored again?

Considering that he is making efforts to fix things, is it worth considering whether I should stick around and give it time for healing to occur. Please help me make a wise decision.