Cheating husband

My husband cheated on me and cursed me a lot, we have a 11 month baby. He left the house.Im alone i don’t want him back but im also in doubts what to do cause im all alone no family around no friend, yeah i own an apartment so we have where to stay but the utilities bills and the pressure it’s so hard.He wants back now im not sure he will ever be able to change.

Anyone got thru this how did u heal how did you do to handle the situation ?