Pcos….

So had to explain but…

I had a relationship with me boyfriend for 12 years some year pass I found out that I had pcos.

We being trying and trying and trying to have a baby together but nothing seem to work. I’ve taking medication done lots of test blood work / HSG ultra sounds and all l kinda things

But before that my doctor gave me “provera” that’s was my very first pill . The period came down .

And I was excited cause I thought well this will get me pregnant… nothing working

After taking them like finish the period never came back

So I’ll only get a period if I’m taking them… ok

(mind you I never had a period for like 2/3 year not even a drop of blood)

I never know what pcos was or how emotional it was going to making me feel the doctor never explain (Sad) as I get older am now 32 I used to google was it was and how fast I can get pregnant with it nothing never work I even came across myo inosital vitex and gerital ( nothing) even pre natal vitamins and a bunch more and nothing .

My boyfriend cheated on me had a child with someone else cause he wanted to have a child so bad

And I was upset I was sad I was depressed angry all the time cause I felt disappointed cause at first I thought the male was the issue not knowing it was me

I felt so shame and embarrassed

After many many many visits to the doctor he told me to stop eating certain food lose weight and etc but in my mind they are people 10x bigger then me getting pregnant and not me I’m not even a big girl I wear size xl clothes lol

Till this day still no period nothing seems to work sometimes I feel like I just wanna disappear like god please take me off earth but yea

I think the doctors need to do better and find something specifically for pcos to help us woman because life is stressful out here