Longing

I have a 3 year old son and I lost a baby at 19 weeks on September 1st but not with my current partner.

I’ve known my partner 7 years and we’ve dated on and off but only been together officially 6 months. I have really awful baby fever.

I have a copper coil and we haven’t had sex in about 3 weeks. I have been spotting for about a week but only tiny amounts and my period is due today but no signs yet, I know coils can mess it up but I keep testing hoping that by some miracle it’s positive and of course it never is. I’m really longing for a baby and I know it’s not the right time nor have we been together long enough but I just feel so empty.

I’ve been in tears at everything lately and I’m really struggling to ignore the feelings 💔