Idk what to do

My bd and I broke up in January. He put me through so many traumatizing things. I’m still trying to heal through some. But after 4 months of being broken up, I wanted to get out there. Get pretty, go on dates, experience different things and people.

I told every guy I went on a date with I wasn’t ready for a relationship that I just wanna meet new people and about getting out of a very toxic relationship. I was straight up with everyone. One guy I met is so sweet, and is promising me the world. He wants a relationship so bad and is so sweet and respectful. Idk what to do. I’m not fully healed myself, and I told him that, but he still is kinda pushing it. I don’t want to hurt his feelings, and I don’t wanna pass up a good guy. Idk what to do.

I thought by now (July) I’d be ready and healed but im not.

(None have came around my son, I would never introduce them. I keep my son’s business between his father and myself.)