* may be triggering for some*

I think I might be pregnant on the IUD.

I DONT WANT TO BE PREGNANT and don’t want the baby. I never thought I would be the person to say I don’t want a child. Me and my husband struggled with infertility for many years, but both agree we don’t want it, we are not happy or excited. (That’s why I’m on BC) we currently have 2 beautiful children. And all I can think about is how much I don’t want this, and if this makes me a horrible person…. I’m currently waiting for him to bring me home a test. I’m soooo nauseous and my boobs hurt like they did when I was pregnant with my other two children with cravings of things I don’t normally eat.

My last pregnancy I was having seizures, middle of Covid, and recently been told that I have gene mutation of c677t which puts me at higher risk of having a child with neural tube defect.

I feel like a horrible person, because I don’t want it. I don’t want to be pregnant, someone please come take away all my baby my baby dust. I don’t need it, give it to someone who needs it. 😭😩

I just needed to vent, (in hopefully a safe place).