I don’t want to try anymore

I’m devastated this morning. Started spotting this morning after af was a day late. I’m so tired of trying, month.. after month.. after month. I get my hopes up every month and think every month it will be different. All for what? My period to show up every time. I know it can take up to a year to conceive but I am so mentally exhausted and it’s all starting to feel like a chore. I conceived almost immediately with my son and now I’m starting to feel like something is wrong with me. This journey is so incredibly lonely on top of it all. How do you have the strength to keep trying?