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I feel stuck. Basically I’ve been in a weird situationship with this guy for 3 years now. He’s abusive to me (verbally, emotionally, and has thrown something at me once) and controlling. But also reminds me any time I get too close for his comfort that I’m “just sex”. And dumps me off every so often and then comes back. He’s awful, obviously. I was going to break it off last week and then I found I was pregnant. I’m currently miscarrying right now. I haven’t told him up until this point because I thought there was hope the baby would survive. But my tests are getting lighter. I think he knows something is up because we share location and when he saw I was at the hospital, I told him it was for a bad UTI. But I’ve also been telling him that I’m having a rough time and am depressed. I asked for a hug and comfort sex but I think he thinks I’m just off my meds (I’m bipolar) and leaning on him emotionally and freaking him out. I want to tell him that I was pregnant and miscarrying. But my concerns are this: 1.) he won’t believe me. 2.) He’ll just freak out at the fact that I was pregnant and will stop talking to me 3.) he’ll just focus on the fact I didn’t tell him right away and be pissed. I just don’t know if it’s worth it to be open with him. But I feel guilty not telling him.