Havnt been on here a while.

Well it's been a few days since I last posted after my scan on Tuesday. My bean was measuring 10 days behind with a faint heartbeat :(. The have scheduled me for a repeat scan in 16days!!! I have however managed to get it brought forward to Thurs next week- no way I could have waited that long.

Woke up Weds morning and it hit me again, the whole thing felt like a dream but now I feel remarkably OK. I know this may sound horrible or cruel but I think I have just accepted that this one just maybe wasn't meant to be.

At the moment I don't know if heart is still beating, whether my baby has grown, or even if my little bean has already gone to heaven. I have no miscarriage symptoms (cramping or bleeding) but have had a horrible case of morning sickness the past two days.

Who knows what my scan next week will bring though?!?