Feeling defeated

Sorry for the rant I just have no one else to talk to..

Me and my husband tried for baby #2 last month and I got a positive test October 7th.. we were so grateful to get it on our first month trying.. that pregnancy ended in being a chemical pregnancy ( my first ever CP) I and I started bleeding October 13th.. when I went to the ER my level were already back down to 0 so I completely passed everything super quickly.. my Dr said after 2 weeks my body should start ovulating again but my period may be a week or two late depending..

Well it’s been almost 3 weeks since and I haven’t had a positive ovulation test.. I’ve been testing since I’ve stopped bleeding and none of them are postive they’ve been staying in the 0.23-0.34 range of LH.. my CM is everywhere one day it’s egg white and stretchy the next is creamy and white .. but when I wipe it’s ALWAYS egg white and stretchy..

we wanted to try again once I started ovulating again ( my dr gave us the okay) but it just feels like I’m not going to ovulate and I’m feeling like my body failed me and I hate not knowing my cycle and then I hate feeling like I let down my husband cause he was so excited when we found out ( he has told me multiple times he doesn’t blame me and isn’t mad or anything it was out of our control)

But I just feel defeated and like I’m never gonna see a positive ovulation test and or pregnancy test again…